Today something happened that I didn’t think would, Emmie is back breastfeeding!! I have been exclusively pumping since she came home from the hospital because it worked out better for me and my boobs needed a break!
Exclusively pumping made me so much more comfortable because I was able to see exactly how much milk she was getting with every feeding, and I was making a lot of milk being able to freeze about 12 Oz. A day at minimum! Then I got mastitis (sorry to any mom who’s had it, I know even just seeing that word made you cringe!) but after that my supply had definitely went down some.
So why start having Emmie breast feed you ask? Because I was feeding her then pumping every two hours & though I will still be feeding her every two hours I feel like I have more freedom not being hooked to a pump the whole time. Also for me, there’s just so much bonding with breastfeeding that I was missing with her, especially after going through breastfeeding with Lina and the bond that it created. How did it start? Emmie loves to fuss a lot before her feeding and with exclusively pumping I have to warm up a bottle (letting it sit in hot water for 10 min) before feeding her, this morning she was NOT having it. She was screaming even more than usual and I couldn’t stand hearing her like that. I figured I would try to have her latch and go from there. I didn’t expect much because you hear a lot about babies getting used to the bottle nipple instead of your nipple but to my surprise I put her on and she latched with ease! Of course I’m going to have crippling anxiety about if she is getting enough or if she is going to start losing weight because her latch is off and she hasn’t gotten what she needs but I need to just let go and trust my body, it made this beautiful baby and knows how to nourish her.
Im extremely excited about this but cautious as well! Not sure if this will last or if I’ll be back pumping all day but I’m going to enjoy it for now! If any of you mamas have gone from pumping to breast please feel free to leave any advice!! Wish me luck!
She seems content and well fed to me 😃